From the beginning of It So Happens:
A dark night, blacked out: a night for murder.
Even inside the house, behind the curtains and closed shutters, there is little
light. The man coming slowly downstairs holds the banister for guidance, and
at the bottom gropes one-handed along the passage, turns, and passes down another
flight of stairs.
He checks halfway, waiting. There have been movements, a squirming beneath his
other arm. The banister pauses beneath his hand, the stairs below him hold their
breath.
Seconds pass. No further movements reveal themselves. The man continues, awarding
each tread in turn, coming at last to the door at the bottom of the stairs.
Opening it the light dazzles him. He screws up his eyes as he enters the kitchen,
where an oil lamp glows above the table. There is a secondary glow, of red,
from the range.
The man lifts his head, listening. Light demonstrates his facial bones, the
sheen of his forehead, and the stubble along his starveling jaw. He crosses
the kitchen to the range, and slowly kneels before it, resting his free hand
for balance on a kitchen chair.
He listens again, but still God sends him no word. Leaning forward he places
the bundle he carries down on the floor, where warmth will placate it while
he undertakes the next task.
Beside the back door, on a hook, the key awaits his hand. Outside the air strikes
chill, he must hold in the cough, and for a moment he stands still, steadying
himself. He is in a small flagged area. Several items stand here, exposed to
sun and rain, purposely untended: a delicate chair, swollen with rain, its striped
seat mould-blackened; a dining room table, its buckled veneer almost hidden
beneath piles of rotting material, a brownish tweed greatcoat, curtains of once
plum-coloured velvet, and, in one corner carefully arranged in pairs at attention,
shoes: stiffened purulent brogues, swollen black oxfords, high heels of slack
mouldering leather lined with the peeling slime that had once been kid.
All these things are being punished. They are to rot, to disintegrate helplessly
at the man’s will and by his hand and in his sight. He feels their essences,
emanations of despair, of pleading, as he passes, but pretends to notice nothing,
so that the dying items will feel yet more fully his power and their own abjection.
Opening the outhouse door he takes up the shovel waiting inside. It is a good
shovel, it will do as he wishes, he can feel its assurances in its smooth handle.
A faint moonlight illuminates the garden. The man stands for a moment, the willing
shovel in his hand, peering through the waving darkness of trees for a glimpse
of the river beyond. Then he makes his way slowly down the flagged path, past
the little square of grass, past the two apple trees, through the vegetable
patch, past the quiet henhouse, and right up to the fence. Here he can hear
the water, quietly going about its business. This will be the place.
He digs quickly, with the expertise of practice. Every so often he has to stop,
to calm his own breathing, and to drag his sleeve over his brow, mopping at
the water that streams into his eyes and down his cheeks like tears. The hole
is soon deep enough, wide enough. He stands by it for several minutes, until
his breathing slows down and he can walk again.
In the kitchen the creature is awake. He observes its hairless reptilian languor.
As he picks it up it flexes, its back arching vigorously, but he does not let
go. He carries it in front of him, holding it firmly. There is still a chance
it will reveal itself, perhaps take on its truest form, in order to engulf him.
Outside it at once raises its voice. The man is alarmed at how much like a real
baby it sounds, but he is not fooled, not for an instant.
The place he has made is fitting. It fits. He places the creature into it.
For a moment, then, memory informs his fingers, like an electric shock. His
hands remember tucking a child into a cosy bed, and rise up in perplexity at
the cold crumbly soil, rise of their own volition to his head, to grasp and
pull in panic at his hair.
But the moment quickly passes. This is his duty. He has no choice. He covers
the creature’s face with blanket, and steadily lays the earth, cleansing,
bountiful, upon it. Finished, he does not firm the soil with his boot, as he
would after planting anything else. Instead he addresses the quietened being
beneath its earthy covering, and speaks aloud:
“There was no light,” he tells it, and then turns, and goes back
to the house.